Friday, January 10, 2014

2014: Plans

I'm really looking forward to this year. I just have a feeling it's going to be AMAZING. I don't quite know why, but it's a nice feeling. :) I hope it really is.

As usual, I've made some goals. I know we're 10 days in already (almost 11) and most people blogged about this two weeks ago. But, I wasn't sure if I wanted to. I figure putting it on here may help me stay more accountable though, so I am in the end.

I HAVE been working on a lot of my goals already though. Like, for example, I've already been to the temple once (thanks, Candie, for going with me!), and I'm up on my Old Testament reading plan. So, that's something. :) I'll start incorporating even more this next week when I get back to a more established/routine life in Vegas. I have 2 more days here in California with my family and I'm going to enjoy every minute of it...and then I'm excited to get back to life as I now know it. :)

I'm a nerd, so I made a spreadsheet I'm using to track things. :) haha

Social

  • Do something social/meet new people - 2/month (at least)
  • Visit somewhere on Vegas bucket list - 2/quarter
  • Go on a date - 1/month


    Creative
    • Make something from cookbooks/magazines (not Pinterest/blogs) - 1/month
    • Make something from Pinterest/blogs (food/other) - 1/month
    • Craft/Create something - 1/month
    Spiritual
    • Attend temple - 2/month
    • Attend institute - weekly (if possible)
    • Attend institute Friday Forums - 2/month (as possible)
    • Read the Old Testament - follow daily goal sheet
    • Read all conference talks at least 1 more time before the following conference - develop calendar to follow
    • Do visiting teaching every month
    Educational
    • Get straight A's again
    • Finish papers/projects early whenever possible

    Monday, November 18, 2013

    Christmas Movie Marathon

    As I sit here "taking a break" from working on my research project that's due in 2 days, I am thinking about Christmas movies that I want to watch. Here's on my watch list for the coming month/month & a half:

    1st, probably  my favorite Christmas movie (or at least one of my top picks...can't let Christmas go by without watching it):

    Home Alone

    Dad's favorite that always gets us laughing:

    Christmas Vacation

    What would Christmas (post 2003) be like without Buddy???!!?!
    Elf

    I've been thinking about this one lately. Funny stuff:
    Christmas With the Kranks

    This one keeps me dreaming (even though White Christmases have never been a part of my life):
    White Christmas

    Oh, George Bailey! A must-see every year:
    It's a Wonderful Life

    A classic I've loved my whole life:
    How The Grinch Stole Christmas

    Maybe even this version too:
    The Grinch

    Another childhood favorite:
    A Charlie Brown Christmas


    Lesser-known family classic:
    Trapped in Paradise

    I just watched this one a couple weeks ago, but I think I'll probably need to rewatch it soon:
    While You Were Sleeping

    This one per my roommates suggestion (I don't think I've seen it all):
    Jingle All The Way

    And there's a good chance I'll throw in a few others along the way as the mood strikes (or the TV brings to my living room). Also, I may likely watch some cheesy Hallmark Christmas movies (the best!)

    What would you add?






    Sunday, November 10, 2013

    Life Goals

    When I was in my early 20's (maybe late teens), my dad had us all write up 50 things we wanted to do in our lives. I was thinking about those things lately. I thought it would be fun to see where I am now and how many I've accomplished...and what I have left.

    AND, I thought I'd share them all with you. :)

    (Please ignore any weird ones that may appear...I was young, and these were private. :))

    50 Things I Want To Do

    1. Finish School - Graduate from BYU
    2. Go on a mission
    3. Get married in the temple
    4. Start an eternal family
    5. Learn to play the guitar
    6. Become fluent in Spanish
    7. Learn a 3rd Language
    8. Buy a house
    9. Get a car (any)
    10. Get a credit card
    11. Get a NICE car
    12. Attend the temple often
    13. Go on a cruise
    14. Go to Hawaii
    15. Visit historic Church sites
    16. Improve on the piano
    17. Exercise @ least 3 times/week
    18. Learn how to cook a roast
    19. Learn to make candy...yummm
    20. Get a laptop
    21. Memorize favorite scriptures/quotes
    22. Go to Disneyworld
    23. Live in Cali (@ some point) 
    24. Become a better friend
    25. Become a better sister
    26. Become a better daughter
    27. Become a better disciple of Christ
    28. Read good books
    29. Study God's words
    30. See General Conference in the Conference Center
    31. Go on Ward Temple Trips
    32. Learn to clog
    33. Learn to Ballroom Dance
    34. Get (fun) books from BYU Library & read them
    35. Take floral arranging
    36. Learn Calligraphy
    37. Learn to cut hair
    38. Get a stereo w/ Karaoke function
    39. Go out of the country
    40. Speak Spanish on vacation
    41. Give away a Book of Mormon
    42. Go Scuba Diving
    43. Meet a General Authority
    44. Go to as many temples as possible
    45. Swim in the Atlantic ocean
    46. Ride lots of roller coasters
    47. Become a neater person
    48. Go to @ least 3 of the places from "Kokomo" by the Beach Boys
    49. Go to Europe
    50. See the Statue of LIBERTY
    And, at some point, I added one more:
       51.  Go to the circus

    From my calculations, I've accomplished about 50% of these goals in the last decade. Not too bad. Some of these are ongoing too, so maybe I could count more, but I left them for now...I can always improve on becoming a better Disciple of Christ and becoming a neater person, for example, but I feel like I have gotten better than when I wrote this list.

    I am going to ponder on what I want to accomplish now. Obviously, I still want to keep most of what is on this list that has yet to be accomplished, but I want to add to it now. Fun to look back though!

    Thanks for the idea, Dad!

    Saturday, March 30, 2013

    Woven

    I've just spent over an hour chatting on Facebook to a dear, dear friend. The conversation has made me think about the idea that we are so intertwined. It reminds me of Elder Maynes words last weekend when he said something to the effect of "We are woven into stories that affect other people's lives, so we need to the Holy Ghost to guide us.". We can have a profound effect on those around us, sometimes without even realizing it.

    I'm humbled to be reminded of that. I'm grateful for any part I can play in lifting someone up. I just try to live my life as best I can according to what I know is true.

    I'm reminded again of one of my favorite quotes:

    God is so, so good. I'm grateful to know he is aware of me and those I know. It helps me know he is aware of all of us. Like Nephi, I don't know the meaning of all things, but I do know that God loveth his children (1 Nephi 11:17)

    HAPPY EASTER! 
    Follow the example of our Savior and go out an do some good (weave your thread)! That is my plan.

    Sunday, March 24, 2013

    Mind. Blown.

    I feel like I've been learning a lot lately. I think maybe my heart is just in the right place. I can feel change ahead. Not only do I need it, I know it's there on the horizon. So, I've been turning to the Lord a LOT (a lot, a lot) to figure things out. I've learned to recognize these feelings, and it's best to figure things out. :)

    Mind Blowing #1
    In the last month I have definitely been taught (for the millionth time) a very important lesson:
    The Lord Knows Each of Us and what we need.
    There is nothing I am more sure of at this very moment in my life. It's a lesson I'm taught over and over again...I'm a little hard-headed sometimes...either that or I just let life drift me away from that truth sometimes.

    It's too personal to detail on a public blog that anyone can stumble across, but I had an experience recently where I simultaneously felt chastised and comforted. I know for myself that my life is going EXACTLY as He planned. He has been and always will bless me. I need to stop assuming that he's delaying some blessings. He IS blessing me. He loves me. More than I can understand. And, He will fulfill all of the blessings he has promised.

    Mind Blowing #2
    I was recently an instrument in the hands of the Lord. I think this happens more than we know, but I'm grateful that this person let me know. It's humbling to be reminded that thoughts are often from a much greater source than my own "good ideas". 

    Mind Blowing #3
    Although I'd gladly give it up for a family, I am grateful to be able to attend some amazing conferences because I am single. It's a unique opportunity that I try to take advantage of at this stage in my life (especially since I know that the Lord wants me right here right now - see #1). 

    This weekend I attended the Silicon Valley LDS Education Conference. I met some cool people, and I received many answers to my prayers. I learned so many amazing things. I wanted to document just a few here.

    • Have "more faith than fear". We'll still have fear at times, we just need to rely on faith and have more of it than fear. - Elder Richard J. Maynes, Presidency of the 70
    • We are woven into stories that affect other people's lives, so we need to the Holy Ghost to guide us. - Elder Maynes
    • Remember, Remember that God loves broken things (dreams, hopes, righteous desires) - Elder Jeffrey R. Holland
      • Just hang on through the broken things because God can fix all things
      • Broken clouds -> broken ground -> broken grain -> broken bread -> nourishes man
    • Remember as long as you live that the 1st principle of the Gospel of Jesus Christ is FAITH - Elder Holland
    • The Children of God are required, by covenant, to sacrifice - Elder Holland
      • Don't flee your chance to make your sacrifice
      • You get the sacrifice back; that's the meaning of resurrection/restoration
    • You're stronger than you thought; you have seeds of divinity within you - Elder Holland
    • Maybe the more you suffer, God loves you more than at any other time in your life - Elder Holland
    • If we truly love God, why not bend to his loving care?
    • Go to the Lord early & often; don't give your priorities mixed up; make certain things non-negotiable
    • We must find joy in the journey no matter the potholes along the way
    • You may be small, but that's a STRENGTH in the eyes of the Lord (like David & Goliath)
    • Be World Class in all that you do
    • Real forgiveness involves a deep understanding that there is evil in the world
    • Sacrifice is what we give up, consecration is what we give (D&C 64:23)
    • The Lord always answers our prayers, just not always in the way we think
    • 2 Nephi 27:21 - The Lord can do his own work, it's our privilege to participate
    • If you're intent on making something happen, you have to be a DOER
    • Don't dwell on failures & spiral down. "fail quickly" - pick self up & carry on
    • Don't wait for perfect. If you like it, go for it.
    I promise that is just a few of the thoughts that touched me. :)

    And I just wanted to share this video. This was one of the amazing speakers at the conference. He showed this video as part of his portion. I thought it was really fun, so I wanted to share. Happy Sunday!




    Friday, December 21, 2012

    My Company is Cool: Google Analytics Reference Guide Style


    I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this before, but I work for an amazing company with very intelligent and cool people!

    Here's one of the latest awesomeness that's come out of this group: Google Analytics Reference Guide & Tips. If you've ever hoped to get better at Google Analytics, check this out.

    It is FREE! And PRINTABLE! And AWESOME. Because that's just how we roll at Blast.

    Tuesday, November 6, 2012

    Looking to the Future...

    I sit here tonight watching the Presidential Election results roll in. At this point, most of the news networks are calling the election in favor of President Obama. As I look on Facebook, I see so many friends lamenting that it is now the end of the world, or at least of America. I can't bring myself to accept that.

    I wanted Mitt Romney to win. I voted for him and I would vote for him again. I believe he would and could be an excellent leader. I think he has the experience and knowledge to do good things for our country, but it doesn't look like that will be the case. I remember sitting in a very similar situation 4 years ago. I remember actually feeling scared for what would happen if Barack Obama was elected president. I didn't want it to happen then either, but it did. And we survived. Yes, we are struggling...and we may struggle more in the next 4 years, but I don't think it's the end. And, I hope that I'm right.

    In the last few weeks, I keep thinking about an experience I had when I was young. It must have been in 1993, which means I was 12. President Bill Clinton was elected president and I said something negative about him in front of my grandpa. Now, I was 12. I didn't know anything about politics really, or even about the president. I'm sure whatever I said was based on things I'd heard my older family members say. In fact, I distinctly remember hearing my grandpa say negative things about President Clinton before the election. So, it surprised me on that day, when I said something negative, that my grandpa said to me, "It doesn't matter if you don't agree with him, he is the president of the United States, so you need to respect that". That has always stuck with me.

    I don't agree with many things that President Obama does or says, but he's still the president. This is the way that our country works. Sometimes the people we don't want to be elected are. Sometimes the bills and propositions we don't want to pass do. And the good news is that sometimes the opposite happens. We win! We get what we want! But, no matter what, we can't give up. I believe that.

    The good news, in my opinion, is that the President should answer to the people. I know people are concerned that he won't listen to what we, the people, have to say. I know there have been time this has been the case in the past even (i.e., Obamacare). But, I choose to hope for the best. I think the key now is to STAY INVOLVED. Keep track of what is happening. Write to your congressmen. Make things an issue. Don't let things slide by. Keep the president, whoever that may be, on track with what we believe as a country.

    I think that this is where we fail sometimes as a people. We talk a lot about politics, but we don't follow through. I've been thinking about that a lot lately. I need to be more involved. And I think many people are just like me; WE all need to be more involved in how our country is run.

    Yes, sometimes the majority gets it wrong. Personally, I think this may be the case here. BUT, I'm not going to give up. I'm not going to throw my hands in the air and say, "that's it! America is over!" We can never give up. We, the people, of the United States of America can and should constantly stay involved in what is happening in our country. Because, you know what? I'm still proud to be an American!

    Sunday, October 21, 2012

    Whatcha Watchin: Hotel Transylvania

    My parents went out of town a couple weekends ago, so I thought I'd treat my sisters to a girl's night and take them to a movie. I let them choose the movie (there are a few I want to see right now), and they chose Hotel Transylvania.
    It was actually really cute! I thought it was a fun Halloween movie...and I love Halloween! I like a good scary Halloween movie (I really want to see The House At The End of The Street still), but I also like the fun little movies too.

    Here are some other cute Halloween movies that I like if you're looking for something to get you in the mood (without being too scary):
    What are your favorites? I always love to discover new Halloween movies!

    Tuesday, October 9, 2012

    18 Months: An Addendum

    I woke up this morning right before my alarm (am I the only one that does this every day? my alarm is really just a formality, I always wake up a couple minutes before it goes off. In fact, somehow my alarm stopped working when I got to the mission field, so I went 16+ months without one and there was only 1 day my whole mission that I didn't wake up on time). As usual, I lay in my bed pondering life. (I know I'm not the only one that does that!). This is usually when I receive many promptings (or in the shower, or driving in my car...pretty much the only times I am alone). Anyway, my thoughts turned to the blog post I wrote the other day, and I realized I forgot something, so I wanted to clarify.

    I don't think that everyone should go on a mission. I do know that Heavenly Father knows each of us and what we each need. I needed my mission. It was essential for the life He wanted me to live and what I needed in order to get there. I know many amazing men & women who have not served missions (my own amazing parents are the perfect example). It is not an essential part of being a good saint or mother or father or wife or husband or friend.

    But, I hope that more young people consider it now. I loved my mission. I wish everyone could have that experience. I imagine that's what it feels like (except probably stronger) when people get married and all they want is for other people to get married and see how amazing it is. And, just like a mission, not everyone will get married. And that's ok because we each have a personal path in this life and all will be right in the end.

    I am a firm believer that each person should pray about a mission if they have the desire to serve. I know that God will answer their prayer and tell them what to do. Maybe that answer will be "no", or "not yet", or "yes", or even "if you want". This applies to all men and women considering a mission. When I first started thinking about a mission and went to talk to my bishop about it, he told me the same thing. I didn't understand it then.  I understand it now. Missions are hard. Every person will need that confirmation that they were supposed to be there while they are on their mission.

    Ok, I feel better now. So, on this Tuesday morning, I want to leave you with this thought: You have a Heavenly Father who loves you and knows you and wants to be a part of your life. Pray to Him, listen for His guidance, put your faith in Him, and move forward with whatever he asks of you. This is the key to a happy life.

    Sunday, October 7, 2012

    18 Months

    Surprise! It's me! {Maybe I should have waited one more month to start again and then it would have been a full year since the last time I posted. I'm not sure where my motivation went. But, I just didn't write. I do want to get back into it...my journal needs some love too. My life may not be very exciting, but I do believe even this needs to be recorded.}

    P.S. (I know it's not really where a post-script should be...just go with it) This turned out to be much longer than I had planned. Forgive me.

    Every 6 months I attend the annual General Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints along with millions of others worldwide. So, the first weekend in April and the first weekend in October are some of my favorite weekends all year. During the Conference, we are blessed to hear messages from the Prophet, the Apostles and other General Leaders of the Church. It really is one of my favorite times of the year. Every once in a while, a new announcement is made during conference to tell the whole church (and any others tuning in) at the same time.

    Yesterday, President Thomas S. Monson made the historical announcement that the missionary age is being lowered starting immediately.  Young Men may now begin service at the age of 18 (previously it was 19), and Young Women can now begin their service at the age of 19 (previously it was 21). I almost cried. It was so exciting to me! I think this change will bless so many lives and I feel that it is the right time for it to happen.

    I don't think there has ever been a time when the world needs more messengers of truth than now. And I don't think there has ever been a time when more young people need the foundation serving a full-time mission brings than now.

    10 years ago, at the age of 21 1/2, I left on my mission. September 25, 2002 was the exact day I landed in Sao Paulo, Brazil and entered the MTC (or CTM - Centro de Treinamento Missionario as it is called there), and began an 18 month adventure that changed my life.



    I had a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ before then, but it grew exponentially in my time there. I knew that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints was Christ's ancient church restored to the earth, but it was confirmed there.


    I knew God knew and loved me and played a part in my life, but I left knowing just what that meant in my daily life, not just in the "big" things. I knew Joseph Smith was a prophet of God and that he saw God, the Father and His Son, Jesus Christ, but I left with an unshakable faith that that experience changed the world and could change anyone's life, no matter where they began or what poor choices had been previously made.


    I developed habits of journal keeping (which I need to repent of now), scripture reading, and constant praying that continue to bless my life. And, perhaps most importantly, I knew before it was important to serve others and to serve my God with all my mind, might and strength, but I left knowing that nothing is of greater worth.




    My life is constantly blessed because of my time as a missionary. I am so much stronger now. I know I will be a better wife and mother because of it. I believe I am a better sister, friend, daughter, employee, and servant.  I owe it all to 18 months of full-time service to my God.


    And so, I'm excited for so many others to serve. Excited for the fun they will have, but also for the hard times that will strengthen them. Excited for them to go out street contacting for the first time in a language they are just learning and meeting someone who wants to argue with them. They don't want to argue, and they don't know a lot of what to say, but they can say with full conviction, "But I know that this is true". (true story)


    Was I a perfect missionary? Far from it. There have been so many times since I've been home that I have thought, "I wish I had known this as a missionary". But, I believe I went at just the right time for me, and so I can't regret what I didn't know then.  The Lord never asked us to know everything to do His work, he asks that we only have the desire:

    Therefore, if ye have desires to serve God ye are called to the work;

    For behold the field is white already to harvest; and lo, he that thrusteth in his sickle with his might, the same layeth up in store that he perisheth not, but bringeth salvation to his soul; 
    (Doctrine and Covenants 4:3-4)



    As I was driving around between sessions yesterday, I found myself thinking, "what would I have been like as a 19 year old missionary?" I think 21 was the right age for me. I was still very shy at 19. I needed to go when I went. And it made me thank my Heavenly Father once again for a renewed witness He knows us individually, so perfectly. But, I hope this lower age helps more sisters to serve and receive that strength. We will all be blessed by it.

    Tuesday, November 22, 2011

    Thanksgiving Break Plans

    Have I ever mentioned how much I appreciate LOVE paid holidays (& also paid vacations)? Well, I do. I LOVE it. I remember the first time I had a paid holiday time was Thanksgiving and the Day After Thanksgiving a few years ago. I took a trip to Disneyland with my roommates.  I remember thinking, "I'm at Disneyland and I'm getting paid for it!"...honestly, I'm pretty sure that I said that out loud...at least once. It was the coolest.

    Well, I still love paid time off. And I get 2 days this week!  I'm so excited!  Here are things I plan on doing:

    Wednesday night 
    • Homemade Pizza/Movie party for my mom. Her birthday was Monday, but Drake doesn't come home until today, so we decided to really celebrate tomorrow (make sense?)


    Thursday (Thanksgiving)
    • Pick up Paper (to get the ads to look through!)
    • Turkey Trot - a 5K that I will likely have to walk for a good chunk of b/c I have not been a good runner for the past year...I was planning on building up over the last week and I thought I could do a pretty good job...then I got the Cold of Death last week...so, really, I'm just lucky to be alive now.  I'll try my best though
    • Watch the Parade (until the games start for my dad to watch)
    • Make Food
    • Eat Food/Spend time with family
    • Nap
    • Be lazy
    • Read
    • Plan for Friday Shopping
    Friday
    • SHOPPING! - I plan on doing most of my Christmas shopping this day. I know some people like to avoid Black Friday shopping, but I find it thrilling. LOVE IT.  I'm not yet sure when I'll start...will I stay up for the midnight openings?  Will I get up at 3? 4? 5?  That's what the planning is for (see Thursday's list)
    • Nap
    • Read
    • Spend time with Familia
    • Maybe go to Del Oro High School Playoff Game to support my Alma Mater? Go Golden Eagles!
    • Maybe I'll even brave the YSA dance? So many possibilities
    Saturday
    • General laziness...although maybe I'll get around to cleaning my car...which I have been putting off for WAY too long
    Anyway, I'm leaving a lot of room for options that may arise and to general do what I feel...but, this is going to be a GREAT weekend. I can feel it in my bones!

    Sunday, November 20, 2011

    Thankful 14-20

    Let the fun continue. I have to say, I am liking this idea so much that I've decided to write down something I am thankful for each day in my journal. I plan on some things repeating themselves, but I want to stop and think back on each day I live and find at least one thing to be thankful for. But, for the blog...I'm going to continue like this for now:

    14. Health. I've been sick this week, but still I am thankful for good health. I have a minor disease that is unpleasant at times, but nothing that can't be tolerated and treated. I am so grateful that that is the worst I can say about my health. I am so grateful that I have generally good health. Very, very grateful.

    15. An ability to speak another language. I speak Portuguese, and I LOVE it! I also speak Spanish fairly well. I am just so grateful for the opportunities I've had to learn other languages and to use them in my life. Today we had a new girl at church who is from Brazil!  She'll be in our ward for a year.  I am excited to spend time with her and get to practice my Portuguese. Yay!  I think it also helped her feel a little more like home in that someone could speak her native language with her...even though she does speak good English.

    16. Friends. Oh am I so grateful for my friends. I have so many, many good friends, and I am grateful for each of them. I am especially thankful for my "Utah friends". There is a special group of girls (you know who you are) that continue to be such good friends to me even when we live all over the country now (and even one in Hungary). They are always there to hear my complaints, to give me comfort when I need it, and to celebrate my joys. I have made good friends since, but those girls and I share something special. I'll be forever grateful for them in my life and that Heavenly Father lead us to each other.

    17. Brazilian Food. Random? Maybe. Delicious? No doubt. We had a ward party on Friday where people brought food from all over the world. It was amazing, but I have to admit that mostly I just wanted to eat my Brazilian food...I was craving it all week. I made Feijoada (a bean stew - the national dish) with rice and bananas, Brigadeiros (kind of like a little chocolate truffle...amazing), and Pao de Queijo (Brazilian Cheese Bread Rolls). All. Delicious. LOVE

    18. Technology. Not only does the existence of technology mean I have a job, but it just makes my life easier. I recently purchased my first iPhone. I'm loving it. My favorite part is that I have the scriptures and other gospel resources on my phone. I love to read a little in the scriptures, or a conference talk, or something on my lunch break. It is a great part of my day. It is also handy to have when I'm studying my scriptures at night and I want to do a search on lds.org on whatever I'm studying, but I don't want to pull out my computer. Perfect.

    19. Chocolate. I love chocolate. Possibly love it too much. In fact, I'm going to avoid treats twice a week from now on...but that's another post for another day. Chocolate does bring me happiness though. I really am grateful for it's healing powers.

    20. The United States of America. I can't tell you how blessed I feel to have been born in this country. I know it was a blessing from the Lord and I am grateful for it. A part of me is Brazilian, but really, I can never deny how American I am. And I am glad. We are more blessed here than we often recognize. I am so grateful for my life here.

    Thankful 7-13

    Hello,
    Well, I didn't post last week, so it's catchup time.  This week I've been sick, along with everyone else in the family. I'm starting to feel better finally, and I'm hoping I can make it back to the gym tomorrow.  Anyway, that was this week, and here is my thankful list I should have posted last Sunday:

    7. My parents. In case you didn't already know, my parents are awesome.  They have always been there for me and have always helped me so much. It makes me teary-eyed when I think about all they have done for me. I really am so grateful for them. Love you Mom & Dad!

    8. My brothers. In case you didn't already know, my brothers are awesome. I have three brothers by birth: Bohdan, Zachary & Drake. And one by marriage: Josh.  They are all great. Fun to be around and great examples of hard work and great hearts. I love spending times with all of them. I never laugh as hard as when my brothers are around.

    9. My sisters. In case you didn't already know, my sisters are awesome. I have three sisters: Candie, Sierra & Abigail. I LOVE spending time with them. We are a lot the same and a lot different at the same time. Candie and I have done pretty much everything together our whole lives since we are so close in age. Sierra & Abbie are a lot younger than us, but they've always been fun to be around...and I love now that they are older too that we can spend time as adults together (Abs is practically an adult now)

    10. Eden & Ezra. In case you didn't already know, my niece and nephew are awesome. Seriously. They make me laugh whenever they are around. They are hilarious. Almost 2 years old and so fun to be around! They are beautiful and wonderful. I am so thankful that I live close to them so I can see them as often as I do....and that Candie & Josh share them with us. :)

    11. Words of the Living Prophets and Apostles. There have been a lot of times lately that I have felt like I needed some direction and somehow I've been led to just the write talks by our living prophets and apostles that have been exactly what I needed. I am so grateful for these men in my life and how they bring the words of Christ into my life.

    12. The Scriptures. Like the words of the living prophets, I love the words recorded by ancient prophets. I am so grateful for the direction I receive as I read the scriptures. Over the years, there are many scriptures that I have been able to memorize. I have been blessed so many times as I've had those scriptures in my mind at the exact moment I have needed them.

    13. Right now, I'm really loving Michael Buble's new Christmas Album, so I'm going to list that right now as something I am grateful for. It is bringing a lot of joy into my life. I am especially in love with this song right now:

    Sunday, November 6, 2011

    A Time for Thanksgiving

    Its probably not hard to see that I just may be the worst blogger ever. I have been pretty bad about writing in my journal too, which is weird.  I wrote every day for 5 years or so during and after my mission, but the last couple years haven't been so easy. I need to fix that. But, just like I always say I'm going to be better at blogging, it doesn't really seem to happen.

    I've pondered why. I think it is in large part because my life seems to be constant. There doesn't seem to be much different from month to month or year to year, let alone day to day.  Whenever people ask me what is new in my life, I've got nothing. I work, I do church stuff, I spend time with my family. The same, always. I don't have a new husband, or even a new boyfriend. I don't have kids that are constantly changing and growing. I really think my trial right now in life is that life is the same. I've been in singles wards for WAY too long. I've been serving in a Relief Society Presidency either as a counselor or a president since 2005 (minus a few months in there that I was a ward missionary). I've been at the same job for 2 1/2 years. Life is constant. And, that is hard for me. Some people like that, and in some ways I do like it. But, I crave change. I need a new challenge, I need to grow in a different way.  For that, I'm actually really excited to turn 31 in a few months. At least then I'll get new opportunities in a family ward.

    But, it also scares me. Where in the world am I going to find someone to marry once I leave the singles ward?  I mean, I haven't even been able to find one here.  Sigh.  Through it all, one this is sure: God loves me. He knows me. I trust Him. He has never let me down before. In fact, life really is good.

    Which brings me to my point. Gratitude. Sometimes I fail to be as grateful as I should be. It's easy to see how I'd like my life to be different, but in reality, my life is beautiful in its own way, and it always has been.

    In sacrament meeting today, a lady stood up to bear her testimony.  She was just visiting because she had a friend that is not a member of our church that wanted to come to church, so she brought her to the singles ward. This woman, herself, is married and has 4 children.  She said she wanted to bear her testimony because she was so impressed by the testimonies that had been shared. It was obvious to her that everyone had a strong personal relationship to the Savior. That got me thinking. I think we are all so close to the Savior because we are single. Not that I don't think married people, and especially parents aren't close to the Savior. But, as singles, we often only have the Savior. We have family and friends, but there is something missing when you're single. You don't have a spouse to talk to about things, so we turn to the Lord. At least that's my experience. I think I am closer to the Savior because I've been single for so long. That's what I needed in my life. I know the Lord knows what's going on and what we each need, and I needed to be single for longer because I needed to develop a deeper relationship with him. I'm sure other people find that elsewhere, but I needed my singlehood to do that.  So, I am grateful for that woman who shared her testimony with us today.

    So, for the month of November, I am setting a goal to write down something I am thankful for for each day of the month. I know this isn't something new. I also know that I will not do it every day. So, I've decided to type it all up on Sunday nights for the previous week. Things won't be in order and some may seem silly, but I need this right now. So, let's begin:

    I am thankful for:

    1. My Savior. I love Him. I am so grateful for Him and all that He has done for me in my life. He is with me everyday. I am grateful to feel him in my life. I am especially grateful for the Atonement so that I can be forgiven of so many failures.
    2. My family. A lot of people love their families, but I love mine the most. :)  My family is amazing. I know we were meant to be together. I learn so much from them, and continue to do so. I'm so grateful that they are so patient with me. I become a better person with each passing year with their help.
    3. My job. I seriously am so grateful that I have work, and that it is a good job. I have awesome co-workers. We do amazing work together. Especially in this economy where it is so hard to find employment, I am grateful for my job.
    4. My membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I know the church is true. It brings me peace and joy and happiness. It gives me direction and support and purpose. I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father to giving us an organized Church to help us in this life.
    5. Rain. Even though it has been FREEZING the last few days, I am so grateful for the rain. I love the way it cleans and renews everything. In California, this is the green time of year. It NEVER rains during the summer. Ever. So, this is the time of year we get all our moisture. I am so grateful for it.
    6. My calling. Even though I look forward to having new opportunities, I really do LOVE my calling. I have seen so much growth in myself during these years. I am so grateful that the Lord has given me this opportunity and responsibility. I hope I am a help to someone.

    What are you grateful for?

    Saturday, June 18, 2011

    Is it just me?

    Yes, I know I have been EXTREMELY negligent of my blogging...and I know I say that all the time.  I really do have a desire to start being more diligent.  But, I've got to start somewhere....this has been on my mind.

    Is it just me, or does anyone else find that things seem so much worse in the middle of the night?  I have a bad habit of waking up multiple times during the night (not that I do it on purpose).  Usually, I can go right back to sleep and it's not that big of a deal (seriously, I wake up 5-6 times per night on average, I'd guess).

    Anyway, if I'm not careful, I will start thinking about things in life like, "I really need to email/call so and so", or "I forgot to email the bishop the list of suggestions for Teachings for our Times and new callings", or "How can I pay off my car sooner?"  Sometimes I think that maybe its the best time for the Spirit to remind me of things because there aren't other things battling for my attention.  But, whatever the reason, when it happens everything seems like a HUGE deal, and I end up being wide awake stressed about it.  I'll finally get back to sleep (usually) and then when daylight dawns and I think about it...it doesn't seem quite so dramatic.  Sigh.  I've found myself lately being able to think, "it won't seem so bad in the morning".  And, usually that's true.

    Does this happen to anyone else?  Or am I just crazy?

    Sunday, April 24, 2011

    Easter is inspiring

    I love Easter.  I'm sure you all do too.  I'm so grateful for my Savior, who would die for someone like me.  I feel inspired today to be better.  I've had time this morning to ponder and study...time I don't always have on a Sunday, but meetings were cancelled today, so I did in the end...

    A friend posted this on facebook today.  I don't think it was a coincidence.  It speaks so much the desire of my heart.  I want so much to grow into a better disciple.  I'm so grateful that I can see my faults, so that, through the Lord, I can become better.



    Here is the text in case you don't want to watch the actual video:

    I want to share with you a vehicle, an instrument, that I developed some time ago for myself and for my family. It can assist us to reach our focus as we read the suggested vision of true discipleship as a Latter-day Saint. It helps when, from time to time, we ponder and seek identification with the following thoughts:

    Embrace this day with an enthusiastic welcome, no matter how it looks. The covenant with God to which you are true enables you to become enlightened by him, and nothing is impossible for you.

    When you are physically sick, tired, or in despair, steer your thoughts away from yourself and direct them, in gratitude and love, toward God.

    In your life there have to be challenges. They will either bring you closer to God and therefore make you stronger, or they can destroy you. But you make the decision of which road you take.

    First and foremost, you are a spirit child of God. If you neglect to feed your spirit, you will reap unhappiness. Don't permit anything to detract you from this awareness.

    You cannot communicate with God unless you have first sacrificed your self-oriented natural man and have brought yourself into the lower levels of meekness, to become acceptable for the Light of Christ.

    Put all frustrations, hurt feelings, and grumblings into the perspective of your eternal hope. Light will flow into your soul.

    Pause to ponder the suffering Christ felt in the Garden of Gethsemane. In the awareness of the depth of gratitude for him, you appreciate every opportunity to show your love for him by diligently serving in his Church.

    God knows that you are not perfect. As you suffer about your imperfections, he will give you comfort and suggestions of where to improve.

    God knows better than you what you need. He always attempts to speak to you. Listen, and follow the uncomfortable suggestions that he makes to us--everything will fall into its place.

    Avoid any fear like your worst enemy, but magnify your fear about the consequences of sin.

    When you cannot love someone, look into that person's eyes long enough to find the hidden rudiments of the child of God in him.

    Never judge anyone. When you accept this, you will be freed. In the case of your own children or subordinates, where you have the responsibility to judge, help them to become their own judges.

    If someone hurts you so much that your feelings seem to choke you, forgive and you will be free again.

    Avoid at all cost any pessimistic, negative, or criticizing thoughts. If you cannot cut them out, they will do you harm. On the road toward salvation, let questions arise but never doubts. If something is wrong, God will give you clarity but never doubts.

    Avoid rush and haste and uncontrolled words. Divine light develops in places of peace and quiet. Be aware of that as you enter places of worship.

    Be not so much concerned about what you do, but do what you do with all your heart, might, and strength. In thoroughness is satisfaction.

    You want to be good and to do good. That is commendable. But the greatest achievement that can be reached in our lives is to be under the complete influence of the Holy Ghost. Then he will teach us what is really good and necessary to do.

    The pain of sacrifice lasts only one moment. It is the fear of the pain of sacrifice that makes you hesitate to do it.

    Be grateful for every opportunity to serve. It helps you more than those you serve.

    And finally, when you are compelled to give up something or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. But know also that, as you are learning this lesson, God wants to give you something better.

     - Elder F. Enzio Busche, BYU Devotional May, 1996

    Friday, March 4, 2011

    Final Countdown

    This month is a special one this year.  Most people who read my blog know one of the reasons.  
    Exhibit A:
    This fun brother of mine comes home from his mission in just 3 weeks from yesterday.  It's hard, and yet easy, to believe that it's been 2 years already!  I'm excited to see him and spend time with him.

    But, there is also another reason that this month is special...its my last month in my 20's!  AH!  I'm not really sad about turning 30, but it's weird.  AND, I feel like I should do something special this last month, but I also feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water with work and church, etc.  Anyway, I still want to do something to take advantage of my last month of this decade.  Any ideas??

    Friday, February 25, 2011

    I know, I know

    I've been neglectful...maybe even more than usual.  Things have just been busy, and I'd often rather spend my little bit of extra time reading or watching some tv.  By the way, have any of you seen Who Do You Think You Are?

    It is, quite possibly, my favorite show right now.  I often watch it Saturday morning on the DVR, but it is actually on Friday nights.  It makes me happy every time.  Family is great, and knowing our history helps us understand who we are.  It's amazing to see.

    But, I digress.  Anyway, life has been...life.  Busy, busy, busy.  Like, right now, for example, I should actually be studying for the Google exams I need to take for work within the next few days.  But, I'm too tired to think clearly (maybe b/c I worked overtime most of this week), so I'm procrastinating (and it'll probably end up being tomorrow before I get to it...just like the gym). Man, I need to get back on track with some things.  I really need to just set aside some time for certain things and not let anything get in the way.

    Yep, rambling again.  So, I'm going to try to figure out a way for me to be better about posting on this here blog.  I mean, what's the point of having it if I don't keep you all (all = +/-3 here) up to date on my eventful life? :)

    Saturday, January 8, 2011

    This has been on my mind lately...

    ‎"Every woman gives her life for what she believes. Sometimes people believe in little or nothing, nevertheless, they give their lives to little or nothing. One life is all we have, and we live it as we believe, and then it's gone."
    -Joan of Arc

    Saturday, January 1, 2011

    2011

    I love the beginning of a new year.  It's like the beginning of a new journal, or a new school year with new school supplies.  I just have this feeling of so many possibilities.  ANYTHING can happen.  I love thinking about what my life will be like at this time next year.  Where will I be?  What will have changed?  I hope I'm a better person.  I hope I become more like Christ.

    I always like to set resolutions.  I'm fairly good at keeping them, at least a few at a time.  Maybe I shouldn't make so many, but I'm ok with making a lot and then keeping up with some.  I still have that feeling of accomplishment, and I've learned to let go of the ones that taper off and be ok with it.  I always make some resolutions in January and then often make some more/change some in April when I have my birthday.  But, here are a few of the ones I've decided on for this year (the ones I can remember off the top of my head b/c I don't really feel like getting up and going in my room to find my whole list).

    • Study the Articles of Faith and the principles they teach, including really memorizing them
    • Attend the temple every month
    • Go to the gym 4 times a week
    • Clean out my car once a week
    • Wash my car inside and out once a month
    • Write in my journal every night (I was really good at this for 6+ years, but have slacked off lately...it's time to get back to it)
    • Be a better visiting teacher (I need to decide how to measure this one)
    • Lose 20 pounds
    I think I can do it. :)  I hope every one of you also have a beautiful new year.  I can't wait to see what it brings!